Okay- so I get up this morning after hitting the snooze button like 4 times and I get dressed –though I did forget to eat breakfast and I go to class. And what?! Class is cancelled. Normally that doesn’t bother me but I’m the only one in the class, so her not being there really pissed me off. I don’t want her to yell at me tho because I asked everyone if she had been in this morning and no one had seen her. BLAH!

Portfolio reviews are this week, Thursday and Friday. I go on Thursday and I’m not even freaking out about it. I mean I don’t have songs picked out or anything but I have a couple of days for that.

I’m trying to get caught up on LOST. That dumbass show. I’m so mad that I like it. I borrowed the 4th season from Bryan so that’s one more thing to eat my life. And you know what else?!?!?! THE NEW BLACK JEWELS BOOK IS OUT TODAY! IT’S about Jared and Lia’s descendant (male) and a distant relative of Aaron’s (female). The preview chapter is up on her website but Carrie and I are going to get it today as soon as she gets out of school- she’s doing her student teaching.
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I’m sure you’ll never believe that I’m actually doing another entry so soon. IT hasn’t even been a month yet… a few weeks surely but not a month.
I don’t know what to say…. We had this guy from America’s Most Wanted come to school today and give a lecture about how creepy serial killers are… and you only have to kill 3 people to be considered serial Imagine that.

I need to get on the plans for the Casey's party... I’m going to need some help with that and sending out the invites it will be more a bridal shower/then bar afterward party since all the moms want to be there. Can’t get too crazy with moms loitering around I may see a whole other side to Casey’s mom that I never ever wanted to see.

Um...classes are fine. I decided to apply to the school in Colorado... even though its hella far...like a 12 hour drive from home and I could audition in Chicago... I like that they have diversity in their program and they show it. I saw black people in the brochure… that was cool. I had a long chat today with Dr. Pierson—an English professor on campus and one of my favorite teachers of my college career about racism and about how it has changed… 50 years ago, a person would call you a N-word to your face and you knew they hated you… racist people today are more subtle and subliminal… I’d rather you just are honest... if you hate black people that’s fine with me but at least I know you hate me going in to it.

Nothing specific prompted this conversation btw so no one was being racist towards me specifically I am just making an observation of the times.

Oh yeh. . . and lines are due in this crazy play in a week… Oh hell!

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So…. The best thing about being a senior is that I don’t have to like all the freshman.
I don’t have a real thought about that… I just wanted to put that out there. I really miss my gaming group. And I can’t wait until I can come home long enough to sit in on game. I hope things are working out for everyone.

I just found out today that the choir I’m in at Westminster is going on a trip over spring break to….. SOUTH AFRICA!!! I know! I’m so excited. Its kind of far off now but it’s get my ass in gear time now so I can have some money to blow. But honestly… what a way to end my senior year.

I’m excited for the wedding too. I need to start organizing a bachelorette party or a hen party as the British say.
I got the role I wanted in the next show. Thank god. And I’ve got grad schools visits lined up for later this month so hopefully I’d be able to say definitively which school I prefer so I can rank them and prepare an appropriate audition. Oh… where did the time go?

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I just woke up from the strangest dream...

I was back at school and they turned our apartments into co-ed buildings and ther were 4 girls and 4 boys living there... and one of us was a serial killer and kept picking us off.

it kinda freeked me out.

Name the song that lyric is from. if you can, I'll do the Ayu-pan dance.

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Last night was Casey’s 21st birthday. Well, it was her 21st birthday all day yesterday. lol.
So she wanted to go out to Ohana Steakhouse which has amazing food I really love it but it is pretty expensive. I mean really. But it’s not like I go there all the time so I’m not too worried about it. I just got my Financial Aid in so temporarily I am rolling in the dough.

Last week on Sunday we had our first real game playing experience. I had SO much fun. I really enjoy it. Maybe it’s the people or the actual game but I really had some fun. And I once again have a chance to put my limited drawing abilities to the test to create a picture of my character. Oh joy. I’ll let you know how it turns out.

But back to the birthday…I was drunk. Not like “I don’t know where I am drunk” I never plan to be that drunk. Ever. Or the kind of drunk where I have to go around asking people if they saw me last night and what was I doing. Not that ever. Just a nice buzz where everything is happy and just a little funnier than it really is. I for sure drunk dialed Amber she was like amused and gently tolerant. I’ll have to call her again today sober so we can laugh about it.

I tried to call Jennie but she is working. I miss my black friend. She’s my only one. (Relatives don’t count). I was thinking about weddings last night. Well, I should back that up with I dreamt about a wedding last night- I tent to have left-field kinds of dreams when I drink- and that got me to thinking about my wedding when I have one. I don’t think it is possible to have a Maid of Honor. In theory it should be my sister but then I have Casey and Jennie qualifies too… And then bride’s maids… I’ve decided I’m only having 5 because 7 is too many but it’s like… who do I pick? Not that I have to worry about it now. I just think about that kind of odd ball stuff when I’ve had a few. Well anyway.

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I finished The Host. I admit I was not sure that I would like it. I actually planned on hating it. And I succeeded until I got about 1/3 of the way thought. That’s when things really come alive. I should have remembered that… After all I wasn’t completely sold on Twilight at first either. The Host is brilliant. I loved it. So right after I finished I had to call Genevieve and fan girl at her. I highly recommend it.

Hanging out with Stevie and Everly and David was the best! You know how you’ve got that old favorite shirt and you loose track of it in the laundry for a while and when it finally turns up again, clean and you put it on and it fits just the way you remember, perfectly. That was what it was like to see Stevie again. Everly too, to some extent, but then again Everly and I have been better about seeing each other than Stevie and I have. All of our old jokes all the things we used to do. It just clicked. I had such a good time. David was there of course and Everly’s boyfriend Aggie(not his real name) I sorta felt badly for him because he was kind of an outsider since we all went to school together and we did a lot of “remember when”s and “you remember that girl? She’s a slut now.” But he had a good time too. He just moved up from Kansas City so he doesn’t really have a lot of friends. They are going to War of the Lilies this up coming week. Have fun!

What else?

Oh yes… D&D… I agreed to play a game. I hope I have a good time. It was a lot more exciting when it was just in theory and not when it’s only a few hours away. But oh well… what are you going to do?

I had a dream about school last night. I'm getting kinda...anxious ...about it. I’m just ready to move on; and ready to have my last year with the people I have come to love as family.

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I should probably post something that’s not depressing or upsetting… lets you all think I think my life sucks.

I’m done with school now, Well… at William Woods anyway. And all set up to be graduating in the spring (with Arin)! That pleases me more than I can say. Because then I’m going to somewhere like Chicago or Atlanta or Denver and I’m going to finish school and never fall in love with another theatre boy. I’ll try writer next time… LOL kidding…. I’m trying to stop predicating my life and if all else fails Josie and I will live together and have dogs and rabbits.

Um… I do have a chemistry class and my internship- which has it’s whole own blog because the happenings of my internship are confidential to the public world. I can only talk about it with other interpreters… but both things are going good and bad.

I’m worried about my time this summer….… That can be a pickle when trying to see all my friends… some times I wish I could like split in half then I could do twice as much. So I’m going to see Everly, Stevie and DLight tomorrow evening… like 8:30 or so… I’m not sure where.. I wanted to wait until the weekend but Stevie is going out of town until late June or early August. It will be nice to see her again after all this time. We caught up a few Christmases ago but there was a time when Stevie and I were closer than I was to Casey. And I really do miss her. Of course in our group it was hard to judge closeness… we all sort of relied on each other… but there toward the end of things… it just all fell to pieces. Starting with Stevie. I feel baldy about that but what else could we do. Chris was a totally dominating force in their relationship and he didn’t like us. But that’s old news. I’m just glad to be seeing some of my old friends again. The older we get the more we need the people we knew when we were young… so they say. I find that to be very true.

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Here’s to me not doing what I should be doing right now. I should be in lab even as I’m writing this yet…. I am not.

So anyone who tried to call me this weekend and didn’t know- my phone was shut off. I’m not ignoring anybody- I don’t hate anyone. I just got it back so… there you go.

Rehearsal is going so well, lines are due tonight and I’m completely ready! And I have a few of my costume pieces so that will help out. My character’s name is Germaine and she’s really sexy- and I have a hard time channeling that. Yes me- I know some of you might find that hard to believe but I can’t really be sexy on command- or for an hour and a half solid- everything I do has to be sexy…. It’s a nightmare and I think I finally found a role that I can’t do. I know I say that every time but I am really challenged by Germaine.

I miss Arin. I think I saw her in the mall this weekend- but I wasn’t sure it was her so I didn’t say anything. I mean how embarrassing would that have been “Hey lover!” and have it be a complete stranger… yeh, I think not.

I made the Woman’s group at Westminster- there’s just 6 of us so that is totally exciting and we have our first rehearsal tonight. And we have interpreters at “Picasso…” for the first time tonight also... is should be a long interesting night.

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Oh! God…

The first week of school is finished and I am happy to report that I made the show. Yay! I’m trying to get ready to visit grad schools and for portfolio reviews and also for my auditions one in Kansas City for Worlds of Fun and the other in St. Louis for the Muny for their summer season. Is it likely that I will get it? No. I don’t think so. But I have to try, right?

So… um… I don’t know what else I planned to say. Um. Maybe it will come to me later.

Oh god! School is sneaking up on me and I don’t know if I’m ready. I’ll have 20 credit hours when I go back plus voice and choir. That should be more than enough to keep me from doing something stupid again. If I have no time then that means I can behave myself. I love him. Even now. If I can not be honest with myself at least, then what is the point, really?

So I have to work today and all night. I won’t be done working until somewhere about 10:00… that eff-ing blows. But it’s my last night working at NY&Co. so that’s not all bad. I bought a bunch of new books to read and I found a way to drive home that only takes 4 hours. So… good for me less of a pain in the ass drive for me! Considering that I will probably have to come back in February 16 for this scholarship ball because the guy hinted that they won’t give me the money if I don’t go… which sucks, but hey its an excuse to get dressed up and pretty. And who knows…. maybe get Lucky…. I don’t know. Whatever.

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